I'm sure it must seem to some a contradiction in terms to say that I am not religious. I am spiritual. When I talk about God, I use the name God or Lord as do my guides & angels because of my upbringing. It is the word I am most familiar with to describe the "All that is". Perhaps some spiritual people have a problem using the name God because of it's religious connotation. I don't have a problem using it because "All that is" doesn't quite sit right in my vocabulary- besides which for me, God is an appropriate term to use for the huge, awesome, powerful, incredible, amazingness that it is. To me the word God does not mean religion, fear, retribution, guilt, repression, wrath, worship, rules, Church, Synagogue, Mosque. To me, God means light, unconditional love, acceptance, knowing, strength, comfort, fearlessness, energy, beauty, creativity, limitless, possibility, safety, joy.
God. Allah. All that is. The Source. I AM. Great Spirit. The Divine Light. Tao. The Universe. There are over 1700 names listed here http://www.gurusfeet.com/names_of_god I don't really care what anyone calls it. Call it BOB if you like. It all amounts to the same answer which we all have in us. Every single living being already knows. We just don't remember. A spiritual search is about digging it up & finding something that has been lost for so long. It doesn't suddenly change you. It IS you.
Light & Love.
Dude, I know I sound like a hippy dippy flower power bible bashing annoyance, like totally. I am aware of it's ridiculousness. I was the doubter. I was the person who got irritated by over zealous positivity. It is so true that while the truth attracts those seeking it, it likewise repels those who don't want to listen. I'm the last one to judge either side of the fence because I know how it feels. It's fine by me if you don't listen, it's wonderful to me if you do.
In my search for being 100% peaceful with myself, happy in everything I am & do, surrounding myself with amazingness, I'm attempting to be a better person. It's a work in progress I'll admit- I have got 2 young children after all. But I catch glimpses of myself when I have been the best person I can be or I've acted in a way that is truest to my best self. It feels good. It feels amazing. Our light shines so much brighter when we are our best selves. I feel it dim when a mean thought or word crosses my mind or lips. I feel the negativity when I watch a violent programme or I realise that I have been unkind or harsh. I take a mental note to try not to do that next time & keep chipping away because I want that amazing feeling all the time. Who wouldn't? Where does it say that life has to be hard or a struggle? It is what you make it & I choose to make it amazing.
I'm mindful of coming across as preachy. In all I say, I only want to tell truth, share experiences & encourage readers, friends, loved ones to explore for yourself. I'm at the beginning of my spiritual path. There is an incredible amount of people out there that know an great deal more than I do. I'm just one of the mouthy ones who can't sit still in class & has to tell everyone everything that I've learnt!
I started this blog because I'm comfortable with Bob. I mean God. I feel as though we could have a great chat & we would get on like a house on fire. I'd make Him laugh & He'd finish my sentences. Because He knows me. He knows every thought I ever had or ever will have. All the bad ones, all the good ones, all the confusion, all the pain, all the love, all the potential. He knows the best me & the worst me. Knowing all that, He still loves me unconditionally.
When I say He, I don't see God as a big man in a white gown with a long beard. When I say He, it is only my experience of "Him" from birth. He might be She, It, Something, Nothing, Alien, Yoda... whatever. I don't think any of us can quantify it or even grasp it's immenseness. I give Him a capital through respect, not through religion.
I don't wish to lose any friends & I'd welcome an honest debate about it. I'm not going to hide to it through embarrassment or deny what's inside. Talk to me about it- I'm still Nadine. I'm not going to bash you with a Bible (unless provoked in a hotel with a Gideon in the bedside cabinet). Trying to be a better person doesn't make you sanctimonious, up your own arse or boring. I'm pretty sure I've still got my sense of humour in tact & actually I'm pretty bloody brilliant thank you!